13 December 2007

After A While

by Veronica A. Shoffstall

After a while you learn
the subtle difference between
holding a hand and chaining a soul
and you learn
that love doesn't mean leaning
and company doesn't always mean security.
And you begin to learn
that kisses aren't contracts
and presents aren't promises
and you begin to accept your defeats
with your head up and your eyes ahead
with the grace of woman, not the grief of a child
and you learn
to build all your roads on today
because tomorrow's ground is
too uncertain for plans
and futures have a way of falling down
in mid-flight.
After a while you learn
that even sunshine burns
if you get too much
so you plant your own garden
and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting for someone
to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure
you really are strong
you really do have worth
and you learn
and you learn
with every goodbye, you learn...

11 December 2007

Hindsight and the split

It's been over two years now since I started blogging. I just read back through my archives. It's really interesting to see some of the stuff, to reflect on how things have changed. It's heartening to see the posts that I think were written well, and I'm proud of them. Other posts, with the benefit of hindsight, could have been improved on a lot.
It's great to know that people from all over the world have read things I've written. That was one of my childhood dreams; but in my childhood, the only way that could happen was if someone chose to publish you in a book or newspaper. Having the freedom to publish my own stuff on the web is fantastic.
It's great to have a record out there, to track the various things going through my mind over the last couple of years. I wish I'd written all those posts that got composed in my head but never written down. It's inspired me to write more regularly.
Lately, I've been writing. But mostly I've been writing on a private, invite only blog. If you're interested in some of my more personal ramblings, write a comment here or send me an email and I'll send you an invite. For now, I'd rather keep my private life there and my public thoughts for the public blog.
Maybe one day I'll meld the two again.